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01:59 am
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HAG PURIM!!
To all the jews out there:
HAG PURIM!!! We had a great party at Hillel and Dan Adhoot from NBC's last comic standing came to entertain us with some stand up. What a hot Iranian Jew.
But baruch hashem the party is over - this has been the week from hell and i'm so glad that tomorrow (or today rather) is friday.
Current Mood:  exhausted
Current Music: Frou Frou
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03:14 am
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What is happy?
In about 8ish hours I will be going to the funeral of a camp co-worker/acquaintance who hung herself Wednesday night at school. I found out Thursday afternoon. Nobody would have ever guessed that Melanie Scheinberg would be the one to commit suicide. She was such a happy and upbeat person - it doesn't make any sense. Are those who truly seem that happy really are the ones in the worst shape? I guess so. I just don't even know how to react other than describe my feeling of shock. She was a junior in college - so young. Human nature is so complicated and I don't even know what to say.
Current Mood:  numb
Current Music: "Adam's Song" - Blink 182
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10:09 pm
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Spring Break - YUM!!!
Hope everyone is having a loverly spring break!!!
It's been a tad lazy, but who the hell cares? (I'm certainly not one of those caring people!!!)
Hmmmm...my uninteresting life update for no one:
-Saturday chilled a bit then went shoe shopping with mom. We bought her dress shoes for the Bar Mitzvah this weekend and I bought new black boots - they make me feel sexy. OOOOH stilettos. Eat your hearts out boys!
-Sunday went to David's guitar recital. The kid is getting better and was certainly the best out of all Behdad's students. No, I am not using a familial bias (though I do have one). It's really not fair that he got a small bit of Grandpa Alvin's musical genes and is not using them to potential. I would certainly - someone take me dancing please!!!!
-Spent Monday evening with Nikki after going to the flower show with mom. We bummed around the house, ate at Ruby's with our usuals (ok, I lied I ordered the oreo milkshake instead of peanut buttercup. But it was just as good!!!) Afterwards we went on a madhunt for Trainspotting - so crazy, so good. I miss those days...please come to pittsburgh for visits ster!!!
-Tuesday I went a little crazy at Michael's...I spent almost $380 on jewelry and scrapbooking supplies. I really can't afford to spend that much, but I really do want to start my jewelry business. It's slightly difficult when one doesn't have that many provisions, so I suppose I have justification. Let's hope I sell pieces at the Hillel art show next month to at least break even.
-I saw Leah yesterday (along with Michael and Jeremiah)!!! I drove up to Peabody in Baltimore and we just chilled, met some of her friends, and went out to dinner/dessert. Yum, Vicarro's = good chocolate hazelnut Gelati. I'm so happy that we can just pick up at any point in time, even though we don't go to school together anymore. That's real friendship right there. What would I do without you Leah???
-Today I hung with Sam and Hannah after attempting to get work done at Borders. Wendy's dollar menu and date clothes hunting were on the agenda. Sam is an awesome male friend (yes, he even puts up with my loverly Gabaeff colon) and I am so glad we still keep in touch. I miss having close male friends around. Marc, John, and Andy - I know you three will never see this, but I'm sorry we grew apart. Andy you really have no excuse because not only do you live around the corner but we also still go to school together.
It was also nice chilling with Hannah, even though we don't do as much at school. I know you will never see this LJ, but I'm sorry I can't be a better friend and know the right thing to say all the time. I really will miss you next year, but I know this is what you need and I wish you all the best of luck.
So that's about it. Oh yes, I forgot. We're done with Albert. He needs to grow up immensely - otherwise, why would he be so impulsive with his decisions? I'm not wasting my time to pine over him, I'm only sorry I didn't see things a little clearer before we became intimate. No, wait. I don't regret it (except meod katan, lo gadol...I forgot about that the first time because I was slightly inebriated - oops!) because I learned a very important lesson. MEN NEVER GROW UP!!!
Promises to myself:
1. Concentrate more on academics
2. Make a better effort to communicate with family, friends
3. Work on jewelry (hopefully scrapbooking too!)
4. Work out!!!
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10:49 pm
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FREE FREE FREE!!!!
Let me just rant on and on and on about how much i love pitt arts!!!! Tonight I went see Alvin Ailey Dance Troupe at the Benedum (plus free catered dinner and performance by the Pitt African Drumming group prior...it was awesome!!!). Did I mention we sat in Director's circle seating?? So, I've been going to see many free performances at least once a week and being fed by Pitt Arts!!!
Continuing my performance craze: tomorrow I'm seeing Roshomon with Allison (put on by Pitt Performance ppls....don't know the name), symphony with Aunt Tybe (Dvorak - whoot whoot!) on Friday, and then the Vagina Monologues Saturday night with Hillel sisterhood (yeah, there's going to um, 5 of us because JHP will be in Philly & Chabad will be in NY) & performed by Campus Women's Organization (yay Liz & Sheila!).
This all feels sooooo darn good after being bedridden for two days - fever broke at 6 am and I felt rather euphoric.
Valentine's day, apart from being in bed, was thoughtful! I got a few Valentines from friends, but the best was when my friend Hari called to sing to me with his acapella group! It was so sweet!!! *Feeling loved*
But speaking of fluffy stuff - Albert is still not back in the US and I really miss him! We've been corresponding via email, but I'd like the physical presence. Anyway, maybe this will head somewhere. Sigh, perhaps. We'll chat when he returns (I think maybe it's 5ish more days!!!).
Current Mood:  giddy
Current Music: Buena Vista Social Club
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02:29 am
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Got my life back!
For the first time in awhile, I am up at a ridiculous hour and not doing homework (completely by choice...tomorrow I will make up for it). Yay!!!
But yes, I do have my life back for once! For the past month - wow, almost exactly a month - Anne & I have been working our asses off for the Date Auction to raise $ for the Crohn's and Colitis Foundation of America. We garned around 200 people in the Union Grill and raised $875, not including all of the money recovered from expenditures. And SaJ 7 from Carnegie Mellon is an amazing hip-hop band. I have to give myself a pat on the back - it's been the most successful event this scholastic year (and I think in several years, but I can't say). Yes, I'm not being modest but it's my journal and I'm allowed to feel good about it.
This past weekend was pretty good - Hillel/Chabad as usual (JHP shabbat at Chabad and it was RIDICULOUSLY packed) followed by a visit to H Kan with Pam. Saturday I went with Amy (my roomie), Pam, & Amanda to see the New Shanghai Circus through Pitt Arts. We got ORCHESTRA CENTER seats - I <3 pitt arts. They also gave us free catered dinner prior to the show, in addition to a discussion with circus artist from the area. Sunday = teaching/guarding @ Trees Hall as usual and then a bunch of us went to Jodie & Kerri's room for a girls' night of pizza, wings, and Superbowl. It was so intense, especially all of us being Philly fans because well...all except Abby, Allison, & Amanda (damn, so many A names) are from the surrounding area. That included 3 LMers: Hannah, Eva, & me. Poor Nina cried, we all screamed during great & bad plays, and Hannah & Lauren were freaking out during the tied periods. Damn patriots.
Today was decent- macro exam wasn't so bad, but I ended up getting a B (blech). Oy vell. Gotta step it up! Gonna make the Dean's list this semester!!
I saw Andy for the first time in over a month - pleasant surprise, but what the hell was I thinking over the past year? Speaking of dating, I think this thing with Albert might be taking a certain direction. Two saturdays ago (he's currently in Brazil for Carnaval) we went to a Dance Brasil with Pitt Arts (oh free shows!!!) and had coffee & dessert at a cute little cafe around the corner. We also had a chat with a capoiera student. Gosh, the show was amazing!!! I strongly desired to get up and dance - but come to think of it I did. Then he took me (and some other girl we met - turned out to be really annoying) to Club Havana in Shady Side. There were some people at the bar, but it was just the three of us in the tiny dance area. At one point Stephanie (the girl who tagged along) stepped out to get cash and then it was just the two of us - we had the DJ play Brazilian music & jazz. He really is quite the anti-brazilian in his inability to dance well. But he definitely enjoys it, which all that matters.
We've been corresponding since he's been in Brazil - we plan to really go dancing when he gets back. I miss cuddling all night long. Oh wow, gosh that's a lot. Hmmmm. Focus Amy. Crap it's 3ish - I really ought to go to bed. Yay for my meaningless rambling.
PS - Leah, I'm coming to visit you during my spring break. It'll be so much better this way ~ I hope you have a concert sometime then! If not, I'll just have to take a personal show.
Current Mood:  accomplished
Current Music: No Doubt - Hella Good
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03:37 am
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AHHHHHHHHH
Ok, so I should really be finishing my spanish journals for class in 6.5ish hours, but I'm going to relieve myself by writing in English for a few seconds. So why, one might ask, did I leave all of my journal entries until the night before, when I had two weeks to complete them? It's the date auction!!! My life = date auction for next week. Baruch HaShem we got SGB to slip in our request for review tonight. We have an in with the allocations committee because #1 Elan (hillel internal president) is on it (but he can be such a JERK!!!) and #2 Adam Donnell's roomie Jon is on it too. Yay for Jon for helping sneak it in. But here's one confusing thing: they aren't enthused with CMU getting a "free ride" for the date auction, but is willing to give funding for the CMU band. Hillel is for ALL pittsburgh schools and it is a CHARITABLE event, not a party. Don't people realize it is hard to do charity work without a social stigma??? It's not for Pitt - it's for funding Crohn's & Colitis Foundation for JEWS EVERYWHERE!!! ARGGHHHHH. Hopefully i can appeal for more on Tuesday when we meet with the External committee.
Thank god tomorrow is friday...this week has been insane been academics and preparing for the date auction. It's going to be awesome, but until then.... Tomorrow night = usual Shabbas deal: Hillel & Chabad. Allison won't be there because shes going to Jarred's KDR rush formal. I'm so happy for her, she deserves a NJB, and so he seems. Yay for Goykhman for being a good matchmaker. And I hope she & Brian really do start dating because he's such a nice boy (and so cute!) and really intelligent. So innocent too.
I'll be seeing Albert, my new 29 year old prospect, at Chabad. Then Saturday night we're going to see the Dance Brazil performance...I'll be meeting his Brazilian friends at the show. Oh gosh, I hope that goes well. Granted the age difference is actually well suited for the two of us - he teases me about being so young all the time, but we have great conversation and he's so up front about everything. None of this undergrad beating around the bush bs. Oh, so refreshing.
Dad is in town this weekend - he didn't call when he got in today. I hope things aren't strained. Weird, but I don't know. Mom told me our phone bill was ridiculously high - dad had 400+ minutes - weird. And I had over 800. How is that possible if i'm the master phone & have nights & weekends free? SO confusing.
Traveling update: no argentina for spring break because things are just too darn complicated. Israel - sometime in may, but definitely!!! And traveling abroad next spring to Guanajuato, Mexico!! I will be studying with Mexican students, living with homestay family, and going on 6 or 7 included excursions. But the best one has to be Queretaro -> LA CATRINA!!! Sophomore year - oh god that was a horrible show. hahaha, i can't wait.
Ok, now back to writing journals. I want to go to bed though.
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Current Mood: drained
Current Music: Ben Folds - Rockin' the Suburbs
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08:16 pm
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Another Inundation
It's MLK Day and our (Hillel Social Justice) volunteer opportunity fell through. Weird huh? In mid-December I received an email regarding 20 volunteer spots, but when I finally managed to get in contact with the new coordinator, after week & a half of calling, she said that their spots had filled by November!! I don't get it! Well, I slap myself for not getting things together earlier and will learn for next year.
So I'm about to begin week three at Pitt because we get out ridiculously early, the end of April = Pesach argh!, and Pitt doesn't like to give us vacations. I find it so strange that I am already settled into second semester and most of my home friends are just returning to school or still on vacation. Pay more to go less eh?
This past weekend was pretty enjoyable for the most part:
Friday night was the usual Hillel (so many people showed up, we were PACKED! amazing!) and Chabad acitivities, followed by some "swimming" at Dan Wolf's apartment with Hannah, Allison, & Katheryn. Oh wow, we were pretty well set for the evening. Apparently I was playing with Dan's hair but I don't remember...ooops!
Saturday consisted of sleeping in, lunch at Chabad, and Mom & Dave coming in. At night I went with mom to the Bretts' house, where I had the opportunity to spend time Sonja for the last time before she returned to Barnard. It's funny: we were never close when my family lived in Pittsburgh, but in the past few years we've gotten pretty close. Anyway, then we went to see Johy, Becca, and Sarah Nadler; Uncle Myles & Ruth Zuckerman, & Mr. Mostow in their performance of Gilbert & Sullivan's Gondoliers. Twas a bit long, as every G & S operetta, but they did a good job and it was very entertaining.
On Sunday morning I got up early for work (8am - to think that was late last scholastic year!) and it was snowing! Very few people on campus were up so I had the pleasure of viewing the untouched snow! Oh how I really wanted to crawl under a warm blanket in my room and just watch the snow fall from my window! But teaching & guarding called...and I was pleasantly surprised to find that I have all of the pre-levels for my classes. That is, they are all aged 3, 4, & 5 and soooo darn cute!!! As long as they are comfortable getting in the water without mommy or daddy, they are so enthusiastic about blowing bubbles and playing Simon Says & Ring-Around-the-Rosie. Post I bonded with Jen, the head life guard; Lauren; and Elaine, Allison's roommate, during guarding.
Sunday night...oh the iparty. So finally I had confronted Adam regarding his coldness towards me during the week, and I suppose we're ok now. Really it was quite the most eloquent let down I have yet experienced, so I'll give him credit for that much. It went something along the lines of (extreme paraphrasing and my interjections and voicings are deleted): "I really enjoyed the passionate moments and I do enjoy being passionate with you...and I was under the impression you had too" (that would be a hell yeah...ooooh, two Friday nights ago...ohhhh god he's so good!) "but I am not really looking for a relationship and I apologize for leading you to believe otherwise. I just want us to be friends and be able to experience those passionate moments. I had no intentions of making you feel ignored and I'm sorry you have felt that way." Once again, I'm the friend with benefits. That is so freaking awesome.
But really, we wouldn't have been good together anyway...I get too nervous around him and can't really share my stupid side too much. It's not there. I guess I'm just so hung up about trying to find a relationship that I self-create probable situations. I need to get it together, really and just stop acting so boy crazy. But on the other hand, it can get really lonely sometimes.
ok, this will continue manana cuz i gots to do work.... blah!
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03:32 am
[Link] | Just some sillyness from Wednesday night to make people laugh. Or maybe I just think it's funny because I have an immature sense of humor.
Paraphrased microeconomics with Dan Wolf: Imagine I produce farts and you like to smell them. To hypothetically increase your olifactory benefits, you might pay me a sum of money to increase my fart production. But since I can't fart on demand, you are a free-rider in society.
I'll be laughing so hard tomorrow...or er today in 8.5 hours when I take the exam. Cheers to personal rememdies for insipid disciplines.
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11:20 pm
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Final Exams Pt. 1
I think I may have just raped the Japanese Society Final. That's two down, 2 3/4 to go (i did 1 out of 4 of my portfolio papers...yay for writing all day tomorrow).
Now we just have the scary finals left. Meh...I HATE CALC AND MICROECON!!!!
Ok, now it is time to watch some Young Frankenstein after a long day of studying.
Current Mood:  optimistic
Current Music: Zak and Sara - Ben Folds
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12:51 am
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Hanukkah Fun
Happy Hanukkah to all those Jews out there...especially those of us in college who can't be home with our biological families.
I'm so lucky that I go to school in a city where I have a home away from home. Saturday night I went to the Zuckerman's Hanukkah party in the suburbs and saw the many families from my old synagogue. All of the members of my parents generation broke out voices and instruments in the living room to sing beatles, dylan, and other music of the 60s and 70s. Hehehe, they were all hippies...twas great! Then I stayed over the Brett's house in Sonja's room and hybernated there for studying today (or technically yesterday...) and of course a Hanukkah dinner with the Hausmans. Julian's life was scarred tonight because he got screwed by a turkey!!! (hahaha) He found a screw in his turkey wing...and it was decently sized too! So he nominated Aunt Tybe to be his lawyer and they discussed the possibility of turkey profits from the future "trial". There is never a dull moment when any of the little brothers get together.
And to top it off...Adam called and left a message in the middle of dinner!!! I called him back when I returned to Pitt and he asked "so, do i get to see you before we leave for break?" and i said of course...because, well...duh for lack of better reasoning. I have been cordially invited to check out his dorm :) For the guy who hasn't yet dated in college...maybe? possibly? Ok, I really need to stop being fixated on this but...ahhhhhh!!!
Anyway, back to studying...blech. I hope all of those who haven't finished their exams do well and speedily get to break.
Current Mood:  energetic
Current Music: The Postal Service
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06:01 am
[Link] | Hello again livejournal...I can't believe you STILL exist! Hehehe, maybe I'll just make this a biannual tradition or maybe I just might start writing to keep myself somewhat sane as a remedy for shot nerves!
So it's the countdown to finals...ahhhhh, for econ & (fake) calc. Gosh I hate studying and writing the portfolio revisions! I shall kick some tush on these finals and solidify grades! Then beautiful home awaits and I can spend time with friends (oh how i miss those friends) and not worry. TIMES SQUARE FOR NEW YEAR'S WITH LEAH & HER TWO FRIENDS FROM SCHOOL...twill be amazing!!!
Tonight was the last shabbat of the semester! I can't believe it! Those who are off to Israel/Semester @ Sea/respective destination will be gone and so sorely missed! And stupid Elan won internal president by ONE VOTE!!! Too bad we won't have a dedicated individual for such a pivotal position. She will be working with sisterhood and other committees, so that's a yay! And of course the Social Justice committee (to be headed by Anne and myself for the upcoming year!) is kicking serious tushie. We made over $65 on this week's shabbat-o-grams!! Woot woot to the first annual dance-a-thon...here comes the date auction in february!
Then there was post hillel beginning with Chabad of course. A little emptier than usual, probably due to finals. We celebrated Hannah's 19th birthday (happy birthday, even though you won't be reading this) and Kathryn once again attempted her experiment on reversing the Jewish good-bye. We went at record pace this time...only an hour! But kudos to her...a regularly attending lutheran to Hillel/Chabad events.
Post - Hannah, Allison, Kathryn, and I...oh and of course with Dan the CMU grad student, went to Leah & Lisa's party to find the usual hillelers present. Hanging on the roof has never been so popular. Or at least in my limited world. And Adam was there!!! *SMILE* he asked for my number tonight at shabbas dinner. I've given up on Brian because well he just doesn't requite (even though Goykman has so kindly setup a spy in the CMU AEPi to find out...but I figured that out from our "date".) And that's ok. Not everything happens the way we want. Anyhoo...Adam is very intelligent (yay honors college), kind (real mensch), dedicated to Hillel (he's conservative too!) AND SO FREAKING GORGEOUS. And he so graciously walked me back to the dorm and chilled for a bit. *SMILE* maybe there's a possibility?
Oh wow...it's 6:30. And I need to get up in 5 hours to see the nutcracker with the girls!!! Yay for ballets...it's been so long since dracula.
I promise I will start writing. Yes, I can do this.
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06:42 pm
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Summer Memories
I can't believe tonight is my last full day home before I go to the shore before move-in day on Thursday. As Lee so rightly put it, with still yet another year until he comes to this point, it really is childhood coming to a close. Thank g-d bex is having (most of) the group over so we can bid our farewells. Stacey & Liana are already gone. Stacey is a kewl girl...I wish I would have gotten to know her better, and say good-bye. I unfortunately did not get to do an in-person good-bye but my phonecall to her I suppose quasi-sufficed. I know that we will all have amazing experiences and opportunities ahead of us, but no matter what we will always have our base and comfort zone to which we come home. *Sigh*
Along the lines of positive things...here are some of the amazing times I had this summer (in no particular order):
1. Going to Bex's Ocean City beach house with Rebecca (twice), Greg, & Stacey. Greg looks like such a stud in string bikinis..hehehe. Rebecca & Bex, I will be a member of your flip-flop family anytime. Thank yous to the Kaufman/Axelrod family for putting up with me!!!
2. Concerting with: a) Sam, Bex, Nikki, Greg, Michele, & Chris @ the Y100 feztival! That was such a kick@$$ day, too bad food was mad expensive.
b) Dashboard show with Sam. Wait, who are Thrice & The Get-up Kids?? Omg, it's too loud. Let's come back for Dashboard. Stupid MTV crowd (grrrr). The show was hot anyway.
c) Free Y100 shows with Klumpper, Bex, Barber, Chris, Leah, Rebecca, Sam, Greg, Chinburg, Ashley Townes, Ashley's random friends, Silvana, Adam, & Shira. Awesome times...then roaming around South St or going to Rotten Ralph's (mad expensive!!)
d) Free Rufus Wainwright/Ben Folds/Guster show with my new pitt friend guy risko(who's actually will henrich's twin...) He's such a kewl kid and we have very deep intellectual conversations.
e) Mann shows with family & Rebecca - The Mikado, Bugs Bunny, Joshua "joshie-poo" Bell, & the Gipsy Kings.
f) The Warped Tour (free yet again!) w/ Mom & Stinks (we could only stay for the Taking Back Sunday performance). Mattie & everyone in TBS rocked the place - it was soooo kewl to be onstage. I have to say I've fallen in love with the Mascherino family...or really just Scout and Lily. Scout & I played a hard core game of peek-a-boo; those kids are so cute!! Oh yes, I also plan to steal Pinky O'Connell sometime...who ever knew that a pit-bull could be such a sweety?
3. Movies: Rocky Horror Picture show with Hannah, Rebecca, & Chinburg. Hello trashy fabulous - Dan needs to be in drag more often; Fahrenheit 9/11 with Mom & later with Rebecca & Bex; Anchorman with Hannah, Deena, & Laura with a dinner @ The Cheesecake Factory.
4. Cosi lunches & dinners with everyone
5. Avenue of the Arts festival with guy & his friend kate
6. Reminiscing and picture examining with Leah
7. Bertucchi's & getting my nose pierced with Nikki
8. Seeing Corey for the first time in over a year - the boy is chained tightly to his girlfriend...may I mention that he goes to Temple & Lucy goes to NYU? They're "nuts..n-v-t-s nuts!!!"
9. Attempting to go to Brazil's (& many other clubs) with Hannah & Laura on a Saturday night only to find out that you have to be 21 for admission. But we got to party with Barry @ some random place and repeated our story for the cause of our attire...made drinks from my trunk...and freaked out about nearly locking my keys in the trunk at 3 am.
10. Partying with Barry & his friends
11. 3rd of July at Rebecca's
12. Gatherings with the group
13. Seeing Russell for the first time in over a year!!! last night was 6 hours of total bliss, except for the part when his older brother Colvin walked in on us & then his mother about 20ish min later (maybe sooner, maybe later...i wasnt minding the time..). Talking for hours, looking at his artwork & pictures, and reminiscing about moments in our history quickly reaffirmed the feelings that I used to have for him during freshman & sophomore years. I definitely love this kid and my emotions are not unrequited (yay!). We agreed to get married in 10 yrs if nothing else happens with anyone else & he said he would convert to Judaism for me. Sigh. He's such an amazing, beautiful, inciteful, patient, loving, etc. etc. person (and REALLY hot too - what a bonus - I couldn't stop my fingertips tracing his perfectly chiseled body, full lips, and smooth face.) It was too hard to let go...and he said, "Don't leave me, I'll be waiting for you" Oyyyyyyyyy I miss him/love him too much. Who knows, maybe this is it, maybe not. But I'm loving the present and I don't have the right words to completely describe what I'm feeling.
On a last note: Pitt, here I come! Watch out! I'm about to wreck havoc!
Current Mood:  contemplative
Current Music: Heart Still/Beating - Ottmar Liebert
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12:03 am
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The originals...
...are amazing. Yes, these four other girls (ally, leah, nikki & michele), whom I first met when I came to lm township, and I are having an incredible evening of nostalgia & reminiscing before we (gasp) go off to college. Ice cream sundaes, nutella (the french kind is DEFINITELY better), and pictures so wonderfully decorated by Mrs. Rosard in frames...good times. Holy crap, this comfortable place of 6 yrs which has waxed & waned with incredible individuals shall no longer a constant. Pitt definitely has some excitement in store but GODDAMNIT...why now?
Ok, back to night of the originals. I'll finally get back to writing in lj once again. It's been too long.
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09:11 pm
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Resolutions/Reflections
I was hoping this break would be a good chance to see friends and family, but alas no. However I have learned that I really need to be a little less self-absorbed and more focused on school (the mind wanders too much, activities I've promised myself I wouldn't do in high school/ever somehow managed to come about, etc etc).
So it's 2004 (baruch hashem for graduation), and to put on this quasi-psychological clean slate:
1. Be a better friend, daughter, sister, family member, peer, etc...PERSON.
I'm always so worried about what's going on in my life, it's really about time to shut up and stop complaining. Life is stable and it could always be worse. Definitely at some time I need to establish some sort of relationship w/ dad...it's just not looking pretty anymore. Stupidly, I didn't call home to inform the parents about a change in social plans until it had terminated the other day...it just shot whatever is supposedly there down the tubes. Grrrr.
2. Up the grades.
Yes, those need to be fixed. Time to get out of this depression/woe is me phase...I still have to get into Barnard. Hopefully. Maybe I'll get to learn something along the way, but then again going to Lower Merion = intellectual snobbery. An "open mind" is a facade, not an option!
3. Improve swim times
Enough said. They just suck. Or rather that's my mental state. But either way, I need to demonstrate what little athletic ability I have to the team. Oh yes, I need to get that board decorated.
I guess that's kind of it - really vague but eh, fine for now.
Happenings:
International Convention in Toronto - Saw Abby & Matt from Pittsburgh and Beres from EKC. Oh nostalgia. Toronto is quite a cosmopolitan city - rather unaware of that, or perhaps I just forgot after 4 yrs. Canadian ppl are so kind and friendly, we need some of that figurative warmth here. After the whole week, I realized that the immaturity of many ppl only confirms my need to get out of high school.
Bowling/Groundation - seeing Kayla & Seth was fun, getting grounded for not telling of location plans not. They're so cute together. I'm afraid someone's going to take emotional advantage of Kayla someday though - either she's very naive as I'm convinced or just super-optimistic. Seth is a great friend - he showed me part of the way home & called later to see how things were. I really didn't mean to scare the parents - they called the police. Ah!
New Years' - yay for babysitting! Well, I would have much preferred to hang w/ the buds (getting wasted was not the intent), but I capitalized on the situation. Sorry Leah if I had convinced you otherwise - the college ppl actually played video games and watched an Iron Chef marathon (very typical of that group). See how oblivious I'm getting...I can't even realize how I'm acting towards my best friend! I miss you and I'm sorry for being such a terrible friend.
Random visitations by: Nikki - yay, your smile & positivity makes me happy! I love you! Andy for 1.5 hrs (planned while rents away) - this meeting definitely confirmed the strong mutual attraction (but then again, chemistry was always there) - too bad we had bad timing when he was in high school, he's such a good kid. I hope this semester he'll be happier at main campus & majoring in Japanese. Hannah & Ally - Mousse! Yum! Hope you two were safe! Thanks for popping over!!! Susana - well that was contemplated for the Spanish project, but it was elongated into a catchup (been awhile since i've seen her). She's such an incredible person. For such a longtime, the Jesus shpiel annoyed me, but I've come to realize today that if it helps her maintain her ever-constant positive outlook on life, good for her.
I can't wait til midterms are over - ease in school and seeing ppl again.
Current Mood: hopeful
Current Music: India.arie
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